Unluckily in love (Story)

[Rasputin]

[Rasputin]

Yes Dr. Khan, what is it?"

As Dr. Khan stitched Mrs. Amani back together he half paying attention communicated: "I have another case for you tomorrow eight am, can you make it?"

"Sure thing" I said. And, as I turned to leave...

Dr. Khan stated: "The nodes were negative by the way!"

I turned back around and blurted: "What"

Dr. Khan: "The nodes.... the sentinel nodes of Mrs. Amani our patient...they are negative..."

(Surprised) "Oh, yes. That's great! Excellent! She is one of the lucky ones..."

Dr Khan: "Yes,.... she is..."

"OK, see you tomorrow then..." I said, as I turned away in disbelief.

I though my intuition was right on. I could not believe I deceived myself into acknowledging thoughts of premonition. I felt foolish, and very unscientific! Mad at myself for letting this notion rapture me I pondered other unpleasant thoughts like the last argument John and I got into. I was so angry with him, and often. I was upset that I never met this parents. I was upset that we dated for years, and we never got engaged and ceased to talk about a future. I was furious about this girl "friend" I caught him speaking to last year. And, before I could zip through another unsettling thought I gathered our separation as a step in the right direction. I realized the time had come to end this nonsense of a relationship, and understand that we were not good for each other. That the strong love that had seen us through many obstacles was now hurting us not helping. Our time together was trying and for whatever reason extremely stressful, but it was those moments of harmony that kept us coming back for more. And, now as the ride home seems a bit longer and realistic. I knew if I called we would pick up just where we left off as we usually did. We would be so relieved to hear from each other again we would just put the past behind us, instead I decided to ignore my impulse.

That night I settled into bed, and dreamt pleasant thoughts of John as I always have since the day we met. I woke up thinking how perfect we were but only in my dreams, and how unluckily in love we were. I wondered how long these dreams and my thoughts of him would go on until they dissipate like my wild sense of premonition. I found my answer later that day when I heard Mrs. Amani's last sentinel node tested positive for malignant cancer. Sadly I realized the time had come to except the fate of the relationship between John and I, and know that one day I would meet a deserving man that would appreciate our little time allotted together instead of wasting our most vulnerable moments in separation.